I'd love to say that I don't care at all about what people think of me...in fact, I do say that sometimes....but it's so far from the truth.
Last night Matt and I were talking about the fact that I have a really hard time taking any sort of criticism, especially when it has to do with my job. I have this annoying disorder called perfectionism, and it tends to flare up at work most often. Because of this, I am uber sensitive to criticism, and even get hurt when I feel a lack of positive praise from my bosses. I care so much -- way too much -- about how I am perceived at work. I let small comments or events completely ruin my day. I have been constantly dwelling on something my principal said a couple of days ago. And the crazy thing is, the comment was pretty minuscule, and was something I already know about myself. (Had to do with my organization skills.....)
So I guess my point here is that I'm really trying to let go of my need to be perfect at work. I need to realize that it's necessary to be critiqued and challenged. And I need to stop dwelling on what people think about me (or what I think people think about me.) It's literally driving me nuts.
2009-03-04
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my mind has already been lost...it's too late for me...but there is hope for you...
umm..sometimes i think we are like twins or something..but from different wombs..born 5 years apart..on opposite sides of the country..
anyways, i totally know what you mean! i am exactly like that, and it's one of the things i don't like about myself because it also drives me nuts and keeps me up at night sometimes. i know, it's ridiculous.
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